Ever felt that feeling of nervous energy bubbling up inside of you, yet you are not quite sure what this mysterious feeling is?
I have, and yet it only happens every so often, mostly around milestones, birthdays and New Year's Eve (and may I add, when my husband wants to buy another semi-truck to add to his fleet).
For me it feels like a little bit of excitement accompanied by a little bit of anxiety, topped with a sense of urgency and lightly dosed with a deep seated longing.
It was actually in the very early hours of the morning after my 40th birthday did I fully acknowledge and welcome this feeling of the ‘unknown’ in.
After solo dancing in my lounge room to the entire album of INXS Kick, my husband decided that was enough excitement for one evening and turned in, and invited friends had long piked out (boring) which left me on my own to celebrate my milestone.
Most unlike me, I went outside (in the dark, on my own) and sat by the remainder of a fire now only burning coals and completely soaked in my special 40th birthday full moon.
This was a turning point for me and a time in space I will never forget.
Even though I live a fully blessed life, I have had many heart breaks, challenges and struggles. But on that morning, under the full moon on my own, at 2am, after my 40th birthday I got those feelings I mentioned earlier.
You know the feeling, it's of excitement and nerves all rolled into one.
I saw it clearly under my moon light and I felt it running through my veins.
This is the feeling of life, it’s like life is slapping you across the face with a cold fish and saying “hey wake up, this is it, you’re living it, feeling it and walking towards it”.
It is full of endless possibilities, it is your responsibility not to ignore it.
I was being shown that the next 40 years of my life are mine to create, enjoy and live just as I wish.
Take these feeling and hold them close because they have a message for you and that message is:
Why does the title "stepmother" conjure up such a bad name?
I am going to be blunt, I absolutely hate the title "stepmother"!
I am positive for me that the stigma of “the stepmother” stems from fairy tales of the wicked stepmother in tales of Snow White and Hansel and Gretel.
I was brought up by a “step mother” and although she is a gentle and giving soul, there was always a grudge attached to that story, that’s until I myself became a stepmother.
As I sit here and write I look back over the past six years and breathe a massive sigh of relief that finally the struggles and torment of blending two families is finally sorted and there is peace.
My advice to a step mothers is:
When they are at our house I cook for them, clean up after them, wash dirty towels, shop and do all the things a mother does. I don’t get a birthday card or a mother’s day card from them.
I deeply love and support my husband and with that comes doing the best I can with his children.
I am not their mother, they have a good mother and she does a fine job.
I am the woman who loves their father like crazy and supports him and vows to love and look after him until death do us part.
It is super important to set your boundaries. Remember everyone’s situation is different and your love, commitment and support as a couple will allow the children to feel security and love, so you all can blend and be a well-adjusted new age family but do not sell your soul, they won’t appreciate it until they become step parents.
For more tips on how to set your boundaries and join as families, please email me for your free discovery call.
My soul has recently discovered the simplistic bliss of feminine touch.
At a retreat in Bondi Sydney recently I discovered that I was deeply missing physical contact with women.
I believe we all do.
I was reminded the importance of women coming together in circles of love, trust and with open hearts.
At this retreat there where 22 females, 22 being the Master number in numerology. It made the experience even more of a spiritual delight.
Our Australian Goddess 'Tania' had set up an intimate space in Bondi where she'd adorned the floors with colourful rugs, placed flowers about, brought in sacred water which shimmered and danced with the light of a ceremonial candle for the entire weekend.
It was a perfect setting. There where an array of women from all different states of Australia and different ages and stages.
I hadn't realised (until this retreat) how big the gap was that I had in my heart, which was relating to not having physical contact with females.
You may even wonder sometimes about your own sexuality and mix your feelings of this loss with sexual thoughts or actions.
You could be just like me and experience a deep core, inner loss and craving for the connection and touch from fellow sisters (friends), your mother and daughters.
Once upon a time not so long ago I got to cuddle and kiss my daughter, every day. I would do her hair and hold her hand across the street, we got to snuggle up close on the couch. Even though she is eighteen now, I am going to make it happen that we hug more and sit shoulder to shoulder holding hands.
And is it any wonder we enjoy going to the beautician, hairdresser and having a massage. We get contact from other females.
How can you incorporate more sisterly touch in your life?
I know I am going to be more affectionate with the women in my circle. We need it, it is natural, it is nurturing, and it is bringing confidence back to the sisterhood of lost and disjointed souls who are longing for a connection.
When you next see me please take my hand or hug me like we are long lost sisters.
With love and many blessings Annie Wilson.
It is now TIME to make the decision that you will honour your needs.
‘Let's talk about faith, faith is the opposite to fear.
Faith is letting go and handing it over to a higher source.
Fear is holding on and controlling.
Fear is the absence of love for yourself, your inner being.’
To be able to fully give into faith and let go of fear, I believe that you need to be able to put your trust in someone that you have a connection with. Ultimately this someone is yourself.
If you do not yet feel a connection with yourself, anyone or anything, be patient and simply ask for one.
Sit in a ten to fifteen -minute mediation with the intention of feeling a connection. As I said previously a very powerful guide is your higher self. Most mystics and spiritual beings are only ever guided by their higher self, which is of course a pure golden thread and connection to God.
Connection to faith exercise:
1. Sit with the intention of feeling a connection
2. Get comfortable
3. Softly close your eyes
4. Bring your attention to your heart chakra, breathe into this centre and breathe out
5. Say to yourself ‘my intention for this meditation is to find a connection. Higher self, please show me or tell me or allow me to feel my connection in my heart’.
Sit with this, without forcing an outcome. If you feel your heart centre get warm and swell full of love, congratulations, you have full and divine connection with ‘self’. This is where you come each time to call upon yourself for faith.
Some of you may see an image of an angel, a bright light, perhaps an animal guide. You may hear a voice; as I said, you may feel your heart expand or your skin may tell you by the feeling of goose bumps or tingles. There are many ways that you can get a sign that you are not alone and that you have a true connection to your higher self or higher guide that is here and always has been to help you. This is a beautiful exercise to do and to meet the guides who have been with you, possibly through many life times.
If you do not succeed at first, use this as your daily meditation until you allow the veil of your doubts drop to the wayside for the beautiful truth to wash through your heart.
When you have made your connection, perhaps you may like to write down your experience.
You might like to answer these questions to get you started:
Now that you have your anchor you can let go and fall into the bliss of the universe
“What if I fall? Oh, but my darling what if you fly?” Erin Hanson