Ever felt that feeling of nervous energy bubbling up inside of you, yet you are not quite sure what this mysterious feeling is?
I have, and yet it only happens every so often, mostly around milestones, birthdays and New Year's Eve (and may I add, when my husband wants to buy another semi-truck to add to his fleet).
For me it feels like a little bit of excitement accompanied by a little bit of anxiety, topped with a sense of urgency and lightly dosed with a deep seated longing.
It was actually in the very early hours of the morning after my 40th birthday did I fully acknowledge and welcome this feeling of the ‘unknown’ in.
After solo dancing in my lounge room to the entire album of INXS Kick, my husband decided that was enough excitement for one evening and turned in, and invited friends had long piked out (boring) which left me on my own to celebrate my milestone.
Most unlike me, I went outside (in the dark, on my own) and sat by the remainder of a fire now only burning coals and completely soaked in my special 40th birthday full moon.
This was a turning point for me and a time in space I will never forget.
Even though I live a fully blessed life, I have had many heart breaks, challenges and struggles. But on that morning, under the full moon on my own, at 2am, after my 40th birthday I got those feelings I mentioned earlier.
You know the feeling, it's of excitement and nerves all rolled into one.
I saw it clearly under my moon light and I felt it running through my veins.
This is the feeling of life, it’s like life is slapping you across the face with a cold fish and saying “hey wake up, this is it, you’re living it, feeling it and walking towards it”.
It is full of endless possibilities, it is your responsibility not to ignore it.
I was being shown that the next 40 years of my life are mine to create, enjoy and live just as I wish.
Take these feeling and hold them close because they have a message for you and that message is: